So today actually went okay with my scary meeting. Shockingly, all the horrible scenarios my brain concocted did not happen. The guy was just like “this email demonstrates that you are a person who is in a lot of stress and pain right now and we just want to know what we can do to help you.”
So I told him all about everything that happened with my teacher and rape culture and social justice and how I’m constantly depressed. And he was actually really understanding and he said at one point that social justice is like baking cookies in an oven, everyone’s in a different place and some people aren’t done yet. Which made me feel a lot better about, you know. My friends not getting it.
I started to really like him and I also got the sense that this is a person who was exactly in the right position as the Director of Student Conduct. I got the sense that fairness and integrity seem to really matter to him, not in an obnoxious finicky way though. Like if he was in Harry Potter he would probably be the Head of Hufflepuff? haha.
But yeah. I came to get the feeling that he probably HAD been extensively trained in racism/sexism because it’s his job to handle situations like that which happen on campus, so he wasn’t completely ignorant and he understood where I was coming from.
And then this weird thing happened later where this other dude I met through my internship started sending me these flirtatious emails and he was attractive so I gave him my number and we texted for a bit. He told me that he had met Mr. C (Student Conduct guy) and he was “an asshole” who “wasn’t understanding”. I inquired further and he said that he almost got expelled because his ex accused him of hitting her even though “it totally wasn’t true, she actually hit me”. So I knew from speaking with Mr. C earlier that he’s NOT an asshole and he IS understanding and therefore this guy texting me probably WAS a douchebag.
So long story short I was so stressed and scared about going to this meeting, but if I had never gone, and gotten all these flirty texts tonight, I wouldn’t have ever been able to gauge this person as accurately as I was able to. So it was actually a good thing that I went because it did help me in the end.
also I have to go again next week but whatever, I’m not in trouble so I’m not worried.
I’m in love with you,” he said quietly.
"Augustus," I said.
"I am," he said. He was staring at me, and I could see the corners of his eyes crinkling. "I’m in love with you, and I’m not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I’m in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we’ll ever have, and I am in love with you.
John Green, The Fault in Our Stars (via dissapolnted)
What do ppl see in this book and this man like this is the most pretentious dribble I don’t understand help me understaaaaand
who the fuck actually talks like this
literally if someone said this to me i’d hit them with a brick and leave
^^^ THAT BOLDED THO
this fool’s name is actually augustus though?
Augustus Waters. He pretends to smoke cigarettes because it’s a metaphor.
if someone talks to you like this in real life - run like hell. They’re wack.
I can see why teenagers love it though, because every teenager wished they talked like this instead of going “I got your math homework. Math sucks huh? I mean unless you like it. In which case I dunno I guess it’s pretty cool.”(via brainstatic)